Inside I'm an anxious mess but you'd never be able to tell by looking at me.
I breathe way too fast, my brain is scattered, I can't focus yet I can focus on exactly what I don't want to be thinking about, and my legs really hurt.
I'm trying to talk myself out of these thoughts and it's working to an extent. But the more I talk my brain out of them, the more my body feels.
I'm scared.
Someone, the usual someone, is trying to cause damage to my life. He's trying to get me evicted out of my house. So much for making a deal with the devil. He's trying to establish residency here so that I'm stuck supporting him too. Who are these people that leech off pregnant, jobless, single moms anyway??
I don't know what to do anymore. I never know what to do. I get my life threatened constantly if I don't put up with him and I get my house/well being/emotional health/finances threatened if I do put up with him.
I feel trapped all the time.
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